Feeling kinda sentimental today

I miss being a little girl, free from worries or stress and I miss growing up and pestering my older sister, it was only because I looked up to her so much, lol. I feel like sometimes I don't get to see her as much as I want to, or talk to her as much (I tend to bottle things in and I don't open up very easily.. I know.. totally my fault, I need to get over this). She is an amazing person, especially an amazing mom and a true inspiration, and trust me, I need inspiration and guidance almost every second of my life. I've never been the type to open up easily or to talk about feelings, even giving hugs and saying I love you is hard for me, I never figured this out, but I am trying to change that about me. It's sort of sad being like this, always really shy and passive and worrying about what others think, I think it stops me from being the real me and enjoying family and friends and everyone in between. I am blessed to have her as a sister and to have her as an example as to what a good person and mom should be (we haven't always had the best examples of what this is) and I hope I can juggle 2 kids half as well as she does with 3 boys!

So, Dena.. here's to you, sorry for being such a complicated sister sometimes. I do truly love you and the boys so much, I hope you have always known that.

Love,

Your sister