Back in December the company I work for changed insurance providers, sadly this meant I would no longer be able to see my regular doctor that I have gone to for the past 6+ years; I was not thrilled about this at all. I loved my doctor, he knew my name, he remembered me and my daughter (he even delivered her) and better yet he listened and was thorough and really took care of your needs rather than brushing you aside like you were just another person stuck with crappy health insurance that they don’t want to waste a lot of time on. So, I lose my good doctor just in time to find out that I am pregnant again, and man things started off rough with this one, I mean rough. I had to take a chance on a new OB I knew nothing about, a new medical office, a new hospital.. no more Loma Linda for me. By the time I actually got to see my OB I had already gone to Urgent care 3 times and spent 8 hours in the Emergency room bleeding not knowing if I was even going to be able to carry this baby, and still, he spent about 5 minutes with me my last 2 appointments with him… yes.. 5 minutes, all I got was….. here is a good heart beat.. any questions?….. okay.. see you in 4 weeks time . I am really really unhappy with my new doctor, I want my old doctor back, it’s not fair! I feel like I am stuck now because I don’t know where else to go and if this new insurance will even cover me. I don’t want to be unhappy with the person that is going to deliver my baby; and I don’t want to be too much like Katherine Heigl’s character in Knocked Up (trust me.. I am starting to feel like this right now), I just feel defeated. Are my expectations too high.. was I just spoiled before and now this is typical OB care at a subpar Medical facility? I feel like I have to keep reading my baby books to really know what’s going on or if I have a question I can refer to it.
I am honing in on 18 weeks now, almost halfway there.. I’m still nauseated, still tired as heck, still have morning sickness until about 11 a.m…. I feel like I am barely functioning and its overwhelming. I wish I could get up at 6 and feel refreshed and actually want to take a shower (without constantly having to throw up in between shaving and shampooing), I wish I wanted to put makeup on and care about my appearance right now because looking like a troll all the time doesn’t help when you are already feeling crummy. I hope things get better, soon. 22 more weeks of this doesn’t sound like a lot of fun right now.
On another note.. Lily is very excited for the baby, she even name “him” Wall… as in Wall-E, lol. Sometimes she goes back and forth between wanting a brother and wanting a sister, so sometimes the baby’s name is Wall Ann. She cracks me up.
I can't believe my little girl is going to be 6 this year... time flies. I can't wait to see what this baby is going to look like!
Didn't know you were still having the morning sickness, I had it for 20 weeks with Heidi...Ughhh. Did you check Redlands OB/Gyn to see if your insurance is covered there. That is where I am going this time around and I am super Happy with them. I did Beaver first time around-exactly what you are talking about, they stink ;0( Hope it all works out and at least we can do Prenatal yoga soon. Good Luck.
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